Thursday, December 31, 2009
I forced to fake a smile, a laugh everyday of my life.
I was still hesisting whether I want to post.I'm so lazy to post. But since I am free now.
I finally get this screwed in my head:
People come and leave my life,
No matter how we don't want it happened.
Pathetic. My sister went home. So, I was feeling pathetic. She stayed here 5 days. But, still there is a bond so I will still miss her.
I soon get it. Everyone know will leave. Li Ting, Yun Hong, Farah, Jolene, Zheng Dong, Li Zhen and all the Abang and Kakak and Adek. Will leave me soon.
I have to get use to it. I really have to be flexible.
The other thing is the position. If I get the position. Things will be changed. So, I really have to be more flexible and sensable. Coool :D
But, I am just thinking to much... I might not get it anyway. I am completing with so much stronger people. So just be it!
Stop Writing @ 12/31/2009 12:02:00 AM
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Merry Chirstmas
Was Having dinner with sis. Yesterday, LJS. Then suddenly she started to remember of her past. In ITE.So, She started to shared. And, she tell me this. 'Always, rememeber to capture all the memories you have. Is not the place which is important is the people.' Okay. I start to regert. I never take picture with my pimary school people. But, I will cherish it. So, Everyone when school re-open prepare your carmera and start to take lots of picture with me. I will keep it in a album.
Merry Chirstmas, I really have fun :D
With, W401 and Mr Ho Kee Liang.
Wii and Heineken :D
I never been so mad.
But, thanks guys.
I really really had fun.
Stop Writing @ 12/26/2009 12:18:00 AM
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
我的快樂 會回來的
Hope I not lying to myself. I really want 我的快樂 to 回來的. I don't want it to be gone.我真的希望。我的快乐回到我身边。
Holiday, is ending in 11 days.
I want to end this holiday with a happiness.
Not, any fake smile.
Cause, When we reach sec 3.
Lots of things to busy with.
Family, Council, Student Leader Board & CCA.
I might not be that busy in Council and Student Leader Board.
Cause, I might not be in the committee anyway,
I don't want to let Ms Ang, Wann and last three years President and Vice- President down.
I promised them to take care of the council.
And not let it fall.
But, I lost control of everything.
People lost faith in me.
I can't be a great leader.
People who are reading this post.
Never follow my footstep.
Is weakling. Loser's Footstep.
A path to never success.
Maybe, the responsible will be push to next year P and VPs.
I am just and small ex-co.
Nothing to them.
I am really giving up.
Cause, I wanted to help.
I wanted the sec 1 to know they belong to the council.
But, I failed. Esp, When I hold a meeting.
No one came
What a joke.
Hahhaha. <<< That was like f_cking fake laugh.
But, What else can I do?
I am really a loser.
I haven start the battle.
And, I have to give up in the training?
President and Vice-President.
Fight for us in the battlefield we need to get back what we need. and deserve all this years.
And, let's not allow the seniors effort go down the drain.
I promise to support.
I think. I should give a last try.
Let's start with gathering the warriors :D
Never said D-I-E.
Labels: I am willing to give a last try.
Stop Writing @ 12/23/2009 12:55:00 PM
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
我受够了等待你所谓的安排...
I don't know if I'm sure I should post this down. But, I really don't want to bottle this on my own. Dear L,
I don't know, What I am thinking. But, You seem to run away from me. I not sure whether you will see this, But, I can feel you are hiding things from me. I don't want to be one of those who get hurt. I get to hear lots of things about it. I really don't want to trust them. I want to hear it from you. Whether it is true or fake. Can you be honest with me? Tell me what really happened. Everything. Even it don't relate to me. I know it is too busybody of me. But, they really said lots of things to make your fame grow bad. I really don't want to trust them. I really want to believe you. And, they are asking me to get far far away from you, to prevent myself to get hurt like them. You know, I am easy shaken. You have to be honest with me. I don't want to get hurt too. I am afraid. What should I do? When you are not even online when you are needed. This few days all the this that get in my mind is ' Are what they said true? All the phone call, online chatting, blog tagging, all fake? Just a show? I really don't want to find out all the things is fake?' Please, tell me not true. Everything is really. Whatever you said is true. Not fake. Never lied to me at all. Please. Reply me. Tell me whatever they said is fake, and tell me the truth.
Stop Writing @ 12/22/2009 08:59:00 PM
Sunday, December 20, 2009
I wants to become a Clothing Designer/ Song Composer/ Singer/ Actor/ Directer/ Reporter/ Event Planner/ Cheif/ Host/ Sportman/ Teacher/ Web Designer/ Dective.
But, I know it will never happened. Thought all this I still have to pick one. And work on it.
I really want to be a Singer/ Actor/ Host/ Reporter/ Director/ Song Composer + Clothing Designer/ Web Designer/ Teacher.
But, Is impossible.
But, as a actor.
I can act like I am a Sportman/ Teacher/ Web Designer/ Chef/ Event Planner and etc.
So, My greatest wish is still on the media.
Like actor/ singer/ host/ reporter.
Is really cool :D
But, with, my this type of singing/ acting and english.
I will never able to be in media?
So, eventually is just another never come true dream.
Tsktsk.
Ray Ng. When can you stop dreaming and come to reality?
Tsktsk.
There is quite a number of new job I want to be.
Clothing Designer is one new one.
Yesterday, when I was sleeping.
Suddenly. A lot of design of clothing came out in my mind.
Every small little detail come out. Even is really as small as a pin.
But, when I woke up the next morning i can't remember any of those design,
Damn It!
Song Composer. Is also new job.
I was in thailand, inside the toilet
Suddenly, I though of this melody with lyrics.
The melody is My body lies over the ocean.
The song goes like:
You grace is everlasting.
For people like me to take.
You welcome me with open-arm
** So let me enter your kingdom.
Kingdom, oh kingdom.
So let me into your kingdom, kingdom
Repeat **
That is the song.
Called Kingdom.
And sportman.
Lots of people should know what sport!
If anyone don't know.
Is dumbdumb,
Volleyball!
In thailand, I saw this volleyball match.
It is like f_cking cool :d
I love it.
Teacher. is also quite new.
Although, I am quite short-temper.
But, when I went to thailand trip.
I really. love teaching the kids.
Lastly, Dective.
I really watched a lot of show of dective.
On real life story.
Its so cool :D
The dective really crack their brain to slove stuff.
Yet, know it from suroundding object. Coool :D
I really hope to get any job I wanted to be :D
Stop Writing @ 12/20/2009 12:32:00 AM
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Those are the only picture I took. XDCause carmera was down. And handphone quality was...
Actually wanted to make a video out of this trip.
But, the carmera spoiled the whole thing.
Anyway, this trip was really fuun :D
I help lots of people.
Even those people with aids.
And, Lots. I will uppload more at night.
Soon :D
Stop Writing @ 12/17/2009 04:54:00 PM
Friday, December 11, 2009
よい旅行を :)
In 19 Hours Time, I will be at changi airport waiting for boarding of planeIn 21 Hours Time, I will be in the plane waiting for departing.
Even Before 24 Hour Time, I will reach the place I want to go Udon Thaini (Small Town of Thailand.)
Udon Thani (Thai: อุดรธานี) is a city in Isan, north-east Thailand, and the capital of Udon Thani Province.
More Information : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Udon_Thani
Udon Thani here I come :)
I promise I will miss everyone :(
Wth. It's just short four day three night trip.
It seem like a 1 year trip.
I start to no bear to leave changi! Hahhah,
Singapore, Family & Friend.
I will miss you guys. I will come back safe and sound as promise.
Must miss me :(
I am left speechless. I don't bear to leave :(
私は誰も欠場することに :(
Stop Writing @ 12/11/2009 01:24:00 PM
Thursday, December 31, 2009
I forced to fake a smile, a laugh everyday of my life.
I was still hesisting whether I want to post.I'm so lazy to post. But since I am free now.
I finally get this screwed in my head:
People come and leave my life,
No matter how we don't want it happened.
Pathetic. My sister went home. So, I was feeling pathetic. She stayed here 5 days. But, still there is a bond so I will still miss her.
I soon get it. Everyone know will leave. Li Ting, Yun Hong, Farah, Jolene, Zheng Dong, Li Zhen and all the Abang and Kakak and Adek. Will leave me soon.
I have to get use to it. I really have to be flexible.
The other thing is the position. If I get the position. Things will be changed. So, I really have to be more flexible and sensable. Coool :D
But, I am just thinking to much... I might not get it anyway. I am completing with so much stronger people. So just be it!
Stop writing@ 12/31/2009 12:02:00 AM
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Merry Chirstmas
Was Having dinner with sis. Yesterday, LJS. Then suddenly she started to remember of her past. In ITE.So, She started to shared. And, she tell me this. 'Always, rememeber to capture all the memories you have. Is not the place which is important is the people.' Okay. I start to regert. I never take picture with my pimary school people. But, I will cherish it. So, Everyone when school re-open prepare your carmera and start to take lots of picture with me. I will keep it in a album.
Merry Chirstmas, I really have fun :D
With, W401 and Mr Ho Kee Liang.
Wii and Heineken :D
I never been so mad.
But, thanks guys.
I really really had fun.
Stop writing@ 12/26/2009 12:18:00 AM
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
我的快樂 會回來的
Hope I not lying to myself. I really want 我的快樂 to 回來的. I don't want it to be gone.我真的希望。我的快乐回到我身边。
Holiday, is ending in 11 days.
I want to end this holiday with a happiness.
Not, any fake smile.
Cause, When we reach sec 3.
Lots of things to busy with.
Family, Council, Student Leader Board & CCA.
I might not be that busy in Council and Student Leader Board.
Cause, I might not be in the committee anyway,
I don't want to let Ms Ang, Wann and last three years President and Vice- President down.
I promised them to take care of the council.
And not let it fall.
But, I lost control of everything.
People lost faith in me.
I can't be a great leader.
People who are reading this post.
Never follow my footstep.
Is weakling. Loser's Footstep.
A path to never success.
Maybe, the responsible will be push to next year P and VPs.
I am just and small ex-co.
Nothing to them.
I am really giving up.
Cause, I wanted to help.
I wanted the sec 1 to know they belong to the council.
But, I failed. Esp, When I hold a meeting.
No one came
What a joke.
Hahhaha. <<< That was like f_cking fake laugh.
But, What else can I do?
I am really a loser.
I haven start the battle.
And, I have to give up in the training?
President and Vice-President.
Fight for us in the battlefield we need to get back what we need. and deserve all this years.
And, let's not allow the seniors effort go down the drain.
I promise to support.
I think. I should give a last try.
Let's start with gathering the warriors :D
Never said D-I-E.
Labels: I am willing to give a last try.
Stop writing@ 12/23/2009 12:55:00 PM
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
我受够了等待你所谓的安排...
I don't know if I'm sure I should post this down. But, I really don't want to bottle this on my own. Dear L,
I don't know, What I am thinking. But, You seem to run away from me. I not sure whether you will see this, But, I can feel you are hiding things from me. I don't want to be one of those who get hurt. I get to hear lots of things about it. I really don't want to trust them. I want to hear it from you. Whether it is true or fake. Can you be honest with me? Tell me what really happened. Everything. Even it don't relate to me. I know it is too busybody of me. But, they really said lots of things to make your fame grow bad. I really don't want to trust them. I really want to believe you. And, they are asking me to get far far away from you, to prevent myself to get hurt like them. You know, I am easy shaken. You have to be honest with me. I don't want to get hurt too. I am afraid. What should I do? When you are not even online when you are needed. This few days all the this that get in my mind is ' Are what they said true? All the phone call, online chatting, blog tagging, all fake? Just a show? I really don't want to find out all the things is fake?' Please, tell me not true. Everything is really. Whatever you said is true. Not fake. Never lied to me at all. Please. Reply me. Tell me whatever they said is fake, and tell me the truth.
Stop writing@ 12/22/2009 08:59:00 PM
Sunday, December 20, 2009
I wants to become a Clothing Designer/ Song Composer/ Singer/ Actor/ Directer/ Reporter/ Event Planner/ Cheif/ Host/ Sportman/ Teacher/ Web Designer/ Dective.
But, I know it will never happened. Thought all this I still have to pick one. And work on it.
I really want to be a Singer/ Actor/ Host/ Reporter/ Director/ Song Composer + Clothing Designer/ Web Designer/ Teacher.
But, Is impossible.
But, as a actor.
I can act like I am a Sportman/ Teacher/ Web Designer/ Chef/ Event Planner and etc.
So, My greatest wish is still on the media.
Like actor/ singer/ host/ reporter.
Is really cool :D
But, with, my this type of singing/ acting and english.
I will never able to be in media?
So, eventually is just another never come true dream.
Tsktsk.
Ray Ng. When can you stop dreaming and come to reality?
Tsktsk.
There is quite a number of new job I want to be.
Clothing Designer is one new one.
Yesterday, when I was sleeping.
Suddenly. A lot of design of clothing came out in my mind.
Every small little detail come out. Even is really as small as a pin.
But, when I woke up the next morning i can't remember any of those design,
Damn It!
Song Composer. Is also new job.
I was in thailand, inside the toilet
Suddenly, I though of this melody with lyrics.
The melody is My body lies over the ocean.
The song goes like:
You grace is everlasting.
For people like me to take.
You welcome me with open-arm
** So let me enter your kingdom.
Kingdom, oh kingdom.
So let me into your kingdom, kingdom
Repeat **
That is the song.
Called Kingdom.
And sportman.
Lots of people should know what sport!
If anyone don't know.
Is dumbdumb,
Volleyball!
In thailand, I saw this volleyball match.
It is like f_cking cool :d
I love it.
Teacher. is also quite new.
Although, I am quite short-temper.
But, when I went to thailand trip.
I really. love teaching the kids.
Lastly, Dective.
I really watched a lot of show of dective.
On real life story.
Its so cool :D
The dective really crack their brain to slove stuff.
Yet, know it from suroundding object. Coool :D
I really hope to get any job I wanted to be :D
Stop writing@ 12/20/2009 12:32:00 AM
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Those are the only picture I took. XDCause carmera was down. And handphone quality was...
Actually wanted to make a video out of this trip.
But, the carmera spoiled the whole thing.
Anyway, this trip was really fuun :D
I help lots of people.
Even those people with aids.
And, Lots. I will uppload more at night.
Soon :D
Stop writing@ 12/17/2009 04:54:00 PM
Friday, December 11, 2009
よい旅行を :)
In 19 Hours Time, I will be at changi airport waiting for boarding of planeIn 21 Hours Time, I will be in the plane waiting for departing.
Even Before 24 Hour Time, I will reach the place I want to go Udon Thaini (Small Town of Thailand.)
Udon Thani (Thai: อุดรธานี) is a city in Isan, north-east Thailand, and the capital of Udon Thani Province.
More Information : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Udon_Thani
Udon Thani here I come :)
I promise I will miss everyone :(
Wth. It's just short four day three night trip.
It seem like a 1 year trip.
I start to no bear to leave changi! Hahhah,
Singapore, Family & Friend.
I will miss you guys. I will come back safe and sound as promise.
Must miss me :(
I am left speechless. I don't bear to leave :(
私は誰も欠場することに :(
Stop writing@ 12/11/2009 01:24:00 PM
The Man.
SunShine, Ray Ng.
At the age of 14.
Get older every 26 of May
His loves singing, but he can't sing well
he dream to be a writer, reporter and jouralist, but
his english just can't improve.
if you think you know him, think again.
mood swing, million of expression, vulgar, dramatic
and etc is his character,
Has lots of flaw, but is able to change with your help!
Currently, stuck in boon lay secondary.
Will be relase in 2 to 3 year time.
Service Student council, Boys' brigade, W401 and City
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He is proud to be a christian.
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